oh my god :(

he hurt me but i still like him :( im constantly feeling like crying and he cant even look me in the eyes. he always looks down.

oh no :(

i feel horrible. last night i was trying to ask wyatt if he would go to new moon with me last night, and he didnt answer my calls or texts, and when i wrote something on his facebook wall, he took it off and never said a word. and to think that i like him so much and after he treats me like this. when i would stay up for an extra hour on a school night to talk to him, i would get a brown spot on my arm. i have no idea why. and two nights ago when we were talking, i got another one. thats even bigger. its odd. and i like him soo much, but he doesnt seen to even care. i may as well go rot in a hole. and i told my sister about it, and she facebook messaged him telling him he was a dick. i just like him so much, but he's hurt me pretty badly now. all of last night, i just wanted to talk to him as if nothing had happened. i miss him. and i love talking to him, every time he would text me it would just make me smile.

bad day :(

wyatt and I don't have any classes together anymore :( i was talking to him last night (texting) and he wants to go to new moon with me this weeked :) i took a online depression test and i got moderate depression. everything has been really hard lately and it just sent me down really far today when i noticed wyatt and i didnt have a class together anymore.

my phone also stopped working. the touch screen doesnt work anymore. at least not well. i tried to calibrate it, but it wouldn't even accept the one where it unlocks. ugh. this is annoying. so now i have to talk to people on speakerphone with my phone opened

wahh chaaa

New moon comes out tonight!
I just thought that i should share :) i can't go tonight, but i think ill go this weekend because im going to my dads house. and maybe ill ask him to go to a moviee :D today we played acid river and i ended up doing pretty well, but since i have NO upper body strengh, i could pick up the board :( haah ohh well :)

i saw him looking at me a couple times today and yesterday and he was randomly standing behind me in art lol.

xoxo
-courtney

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technically this is my first blog, but its really not haha. im courtney ℓoves you...&hearts ♥ from polyvore :) i love to blog about what happens to me each day, good or bad. and I really do appreciate everyone who takes their time to read my blog :) and im currently crushing really hard on this amazing guy :D ♥ I'm a fan of:
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here is also a little about myself: I have two fat calico cats named Madison and Sarah, I have a part coyote dog named Jake, my parents are divorced (just so you know when i mention, "dad's house" or "mom's house" i share a room with my overly messy sister which makes me ocd, i watch the news every morning, and i really need to go start my makeup, im starting ten minutes late ;) ahah ill try to blog every day :)

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courtney